JUST THINKING

I’m sitting on my love seat looking out the window right now. The movie I was watching on TV has ended, and the slow, gentle rain has begun to fall. I’m on the second floor. It affords me a really nice view of a really pretty area. Hadn’t really thought of it that way before, but it is pretty. There are huge, beautiful tree’s, a walking path, a small lake complete with ducks…. and a black lab that just got loose from its owner. Those ducks are now officially hating life!

I’m listening to my son Josh’s piano recordings off his website too. They’re wonderful. Just him and a piano, making some great mood music. The kind of music that makes you feel all-nostalgic inside, and makes you want to reflect on everything in your life. Just makes you want to think, you know? In fact that’s what I am doing. Thinking.

Today its mostly about my children and grandchildren. And I guess, that’s to be expected, right? I mean they are my family after all, my loves, my life. I miss them. I miss the Sunday afternoons, like today, when everyone used to get together after church, and we ate, and we played, and we just hung out and loved each other. My mom was still with us then. I miss those times.

But, times change, I understand. Kids grow up, move away and have their own kids. Mom’s get old and go to heaven. I understand that. And don't get me wrong. I am grateful that my mom is in heaven, and I am grateful my children can experience as a parent, what I have experienced. I am happy, I really am. But I still miss those times.

And isn't it funny, and a blessing really, how you can be in one place physically, and yet emotionally and even spiritually be transported to an entire other place? I like that, too! I like it that God made me in such a way that I can be here looking out my window at a lab chasing ducks, yet still experience passionate feelings of love, and pride and goodness about my family..…but I still miss them. Oh well, just thinking….