I’m sitting on my love seat looking out the window right now. The movie I was watching on TV has ended, and the slow, gentle rain has begun to fall. I’m on the second floor. It affords me a really nice view of a really pretty area. Hadn’t really thought of it that way before, but it is pretty. There are huge, beautiful tree’s, a walking path, a small lake complete with ducks…. and a black lab that just got loose from its owner. Those ducks are now officially hating life!
I’m listening to my son Josh’s piano recordings off his website too. They’re wonderful. Just him and a piano, making some great mood music. The kind of music that makes you feel all-nostalgic inside, and makes you want to reflect on everything in your life. Just makes you want to think, you know? In fact that’s what I am doing. Thinking.
Today its mostly about my children and grandchildren. And I guess, that’s to be expected, right? I mean they are my family after all, my loves, my life. I miss them. I miss the Sunday afternoons, like today, when everyone used to get together after church, and we ate, and we played, and we just hung out and loved each other. My mom was still with us then. I miss those times.
But, times change, I understand. Kids grow up, move away and have their own kids. Mom’s get old and go to heaven. I understand that. And don't get me wrong. I am grateful that my mom is in heaven, and I am grateful my children can experience as a parent, what I have experienced. I am happy, I really am. But I still miss those times.
And isn't it funny, and a blessing really, how you can be in one place physically, and yet emotionally and even spiritually be transported to an entire other place? I like that, too! I like it that God made me in such a way that I can be here looking out my window at a lab chasing ducks, yet still experience passionate feelings of love, and pride and goodness about my family..…but I still miss them. Oh well, just thinking….
Staying with the "Comet" theme, here's a little fun...
About Me
- Michael
- I love my life. It's crazy, fun, messy, grace-filled and BEAUTIFUL! I am married to Nancy who is such an amazing and beautiful human. She is my best friend and the greatest encourager I have ever known. Some days I find myself regretting some things in my past, but everyday I find myself being grateful that God's grace makes all things new. I have 3 children, 4 "bonus" children, 10 beautiful grandchildren a kitty named Gracie and a dog named Roxy. I love them all so much! My life goal is to help people get free from the trappings of religion and experience the freedom of grace. Socially I am a Sanguine and relationally I tend toward Phlegmatic. I have an aversion toward people who pretend like they always have it together, but I admire people who are the real deal. When no one is watching I am the conductor for all the music I listen to, I play air guitar and I practice my "batman" voice! Oh, and I cry easily. Sometimes at the movies, and always when I see someone experience hurt, pain and injustice because of their race or sexual orientation.
3 comments:
Great start to your blog Michael, I look forward to future installments. Looking at things retrospectively is something I think we do not do enough of in todays busy world.
It is only when we sit down and take a breath we get to appreciate all the things God does for us, be it providing the love of a family or comforting us in times of need and pulling us through.
These times of solitude some people try and avoid, but personally I think it is these times we truly grow as people, both spiritually and emotionally.
God Bless,
G.Y.
Your thought are deep and meaningful, rich with love and passion, that’s is how God created you, that is why you are who you are. Thank you for sharing the Michael we have all known and come to love over the years. Your journey is our journey and I thank God for creating you in such a way that you allow people to come in and be apart of who you are and how you feel. It’s real and in way its healing both of us.
I wish you'd update your blog again. :) I can absolutely relate to this particular post. From a mom's perspective, it's hard to feel like they're growing up and not "needing" us as much. Where to go, what to do with our lives once they get to be what we hope for - independent.
Kim
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